BITTERSWEET

why do I love him ?
sometimes too difficult to explain
why does this feel exist in me ?
my blood getting darker
my mind doesn't corporate whit the reality
so tragic
some illusions come and make me fly
too many times i fell
to many times i fly so high
but it's just an illusions
not reality i have
sometimes i wanna throw away
but it'll come someday
remembering
he's not mine
just kinda admire
I love him
but he doesn't know this fuckin feelin
it's hurt
scar deep in side my heart
don't know how to get it well
don't know how to make it dry

by : nindy aninditya